missing...

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

                                                      i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

// e.e. cummings

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on your birthday, I want to say...

...thanks for choosing me to be your daughter.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I miss you...

...and I hope you and mom are being nice to each other. ;)

I love you.

things I miss...

- the toothbrush joke

- the way he'd say he was 5' 19" when people would ask how tall he was

- the way he drove

- mexi mess

- how he'd sleep through football games, but if you changed the channel his eyes popped open and he could tell you the score

- how he and mom were together before things went south

- the way he made everyone laugh

- how he tied my shoes on the way to preschool and kindergarten - totally unsafe for both of us

- how he taught me to tie my shoes (learning how to do it left handed and in a way that worked for me first)

- his "gun in the airport" jokes (that's what mom called them when he was being super "inappropriate")

- song lyrics

- his obsession over stereo equipment

- listening to him give talks in sacrament